Another Dream
I feel as though I blog about my dreams quite a bit. Probably boring, isn't it? Oh well, here we go again.
I had a long, scary dream last night. It was about my friend who is in prison, awaiting trial for murder, let's call him "D." I dreamed that my mom called me and said that she thought someone was hiding in her shrubs and she was afraid it might be D. I thought she was being paranoid since D was in jail, but I told her to call 911 anyway. She did, and sure enough, D had escaped from prison and was hiding in her shrubs. Somehow I knew that he was waiting there for me. In real life, I'm not afraid of D, but in my dream, it was really frightening to realize he was lying in wait for me.
Next, I was at my office. In real life, as well as my dream, my office overlooks the police headquarters. I dreamed that I could see D standing on top of the headquarters, surrounded by police. It was as if they had cornered him there. He had a gun, as did all the cops. I knew he was going to raise the gun in order to force the police to kill him, "suicide by cop" I think it's called. I had a perfect view, but I couldn't watch him do it.
Then I received word that D was dead. He had been shot by the cops, just as I knew he would be. I was sad, and at the same time I had the sense that his death had been inevitable. My overwhelming feeling was that I had been wrong to refuse to speak to him until after the trial. (In real life, I have been advised to have no contact with him until after the trial.) I felt I had much unfinished business with him, which was now to remain unfinished forever. It was a very disturbing dream.
I've had several dreams about D, dreams in which I've been afraid of him, knowing that I was his next intended victim. I think this comes from my identification with his ex-wife, who was his real-life victim. She and I were friends, and we had some things in common, as do all friends. Or it could be because I feel that I've been victimized by this crime as well. In any case, I've never had recurring nightmares about something in particular before. It's not exactly pleasant.
OK, well, thanks for letting me ramble on.
I had a long, scary dream last night. It was about my friend who is in prison, awaiting trial for murder, let's call him "D." I dreamed that my mom called me and said that she thought someone was hiding in her shrubs and she was afraid it might be D. I thought she was being paranoid since D was in jail, but I told her to call 911 anyway. She did, and sure enough, D had escaped from prison and was hiding in her shrubs. Somehow I knew that he was waiting there for me. In real life, I'm not afraid of D, but in my dream, it was really frightening to realize he was lying in wait for me.
Next, I was at my office. In real life, as well as my dream, my office overlooks the police headquarters. I dreamed that I could see D standing on top of the headquarters, surrounded by police. It was as if they had cornered him there. He had a gun, as did all the cops. I knew he was going to raise the gun in order to force the police to kill him, "suicide by cop" I think it's called. I had a perfect view, but I couldn't watch him do it.
Then I received word that D was dead. He had been shot by the cops, just as I knew he would be. I was sad, and at the same time I had the sense that his death had been inevitable. My overwhelming feeling was that I had been wrong to refuse to speak to him until after the trial. (In real life, I have been advised to have no contact with him until after the trial.) I felt I had much unfinished business with him, which was now to remain unfinished forever. It was a very disturbing dream.
I've had several dreams about D, dreams in which I've been afraid of him, knowing that I was his next intended victim. I think this comes from my identification with his ex-wife, who was his real-life victim. She and I were friends, and we had some things in common, as do all friends. Or it could be because I feel that I've been victimized by this crime as well. In any case, I've never had recurring nightmares about something in particular before. It's not exactly pleasant.
OK, well, thanks for letting me ramble on.
posted by Juanita at
8:31 AM
5 Comments:
So scary and so sad.
That is scary. I'm sure you've written the story behind D before, but I've never read it...do you have the link to that post, I'm just curious.
xoxo
Dang this is awful - I wish you peaceful sleep.
I'll be so glad when you have that trial up and gone so that those dreams will be allowed to lessen and fade with time.
I am trying to think if I have ever had as scary of a dream as that. Hmm. Only thing I can come up with is that the night before Alex and I got married, I dreampt that I went to go get married and my ex showed up instead. Alex was sad because my ex managed to get his own name replaced on the marriage certificate from Alex's name, and so I couldn't marry Alex...only remarry my ex. Brrr. Like once wasn't enough!
I like reading about you dreams .. it's not rambling on ... and it's good for you to get it out!
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